You call it fucking because you think it makes you sound hard.
It doesn't.
Fucking makes you brittle,
all jagged nerves and raw edges and jumping when the phone rings.
Not tough, just desperate for that one
that will make it real.
You never know which emptiness you want to fill.
So you say it like it feels, knowing deep down
you're waiting for the time
when it doesn't.

go back

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© Honey Laura Clark